DIE-lemma.

this is what i wanted. it is. why, then, do i feel so empty inside? i dont know what i'm trying to accomplish by doing this. i dont know what the hell i'm trying to prove. independance? no.. discipline? HELL no. honestly, i've never EVER been so lost in this place i call my OWN life. i need some sort of sign indicating just a hint of what i'm supposed to do with myself. cos i just have no clue whatsoever on how to deal. i know i should quit whining because hey, I WANTED THIS. but what's whining good for if not for things like this. i want so many things. to go to so many places. to meet so many people. many , MANY , MANY! heck, i dont know any other word. i guess that's why i disappoint myself time after time. because i just dont know how to push myself to the limit to get the MANY things that i want. i do it the wrong way, at least. pushing people away, pushing actual relevent work aside. doing all the wrong things. what do i get in the end? hurt&disappointed. i hurt and disappoint the people who love me. i cant afford to do this anymore.


i'm so done.





IN OUT

making breaking

lovin' it!

i.found.my.dress!

just you wait.

05 - 04 - 2008

lol.

got this from neera, dont know if any have seen it. enjoy.

BLOODY hell.

it's been long! well, 2008 is here 3months in and i've done




ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY NOTHING.




spm this year, mind you. scared shitless especially after results for 07 came in. our school did terrribly if you ask me. except ruhana of course (11 a1s baby!) came as quite of a shock how disappointing last years results were. anyway, so i'm sitting here doing nothing and i decide to blog right (dedicated to LL) and i cant think of anything worth blogging about. well yeah i mean there are SO MANY things in my life that are of worth but none really that would be appreciated via blogspot. you know? so. i'm just going to blog about what's going thru my mind atm. pure spontaneity ya. i'm thinking about whether i should have dinner since i ate maggi mee at about 5pm. i'm guessing not. so lazy to go downstairs. i'm also thinking about whether or not to finish my add maths tuition homework lol. or maybe i'll just do it tmrw. another thing on my mind is the dublin literary. half of me wants to sit down and pen my thoughts but the other has completely no faith. how la? difficult topic man, tomorrow's world. i mean, it isnt DIFFICULT, it's just so bloody general and and and and and WHAT ON EARTH WOULD ONE WRITE ABOUT!!!!? you know? you might say, "cheh so easy la just write about ......... !" then when you actually think about that ............. , you'd be like, "oh CRAP la." that's the way it goes. anyway, i dont think i'm putting my brain to full use on this cos i know that i COULD think of something to write about if i REALLYREALLYREALLYREALLYREALLY wanted to. honestly, mum wasnt much help. she just went, "oh if you have nothing to write about dont join la." i'm like oh THANKS mum. sigh. i'm hoping neera has some sort of idea. she is after all the PRO. besides dublin, the only other thing going on is cheer. sports day is on april 5th and our routine has yet to be completed. 5minutes okay! no joke! so we're kinda panicking and practicing till the cows come home but the growth of our stunts are well, stunted. especially the basket pikes. it's good enough, but not guaranteed that it will be on sports day! oh yeah and did i mention that my BACK is BROKEN because of the basket pikes. GOSH.


okay, i've decided to include some jokes. blondes are killer okay. these are the top ten blonde jokes (in uk supposedly) and if you dont know what blonde jokes are you can just go jump off a building RIGHT NOW.

(in reverse order, best last-in our case, number 1)


10. If a blonde and a brunette fell off a building, who would hit the ground first?

Answer: The brunette - the blonde would have to stop for directions!


9. The assistant asked the blonde if she would like her pizza cut into six pieces or twelve.

"Six please" she said, "I could never eat twelve!"


8. A blonde was walking down the road with a healthy looking pig under her arm. As she passed the bus stop, someone asked,

"Where did you get that?"

The pig replied, "I won her in a raffle!"


7. A person went into the office kitchen one morning and found a new blonde girl painting the walls. She was wearing a new fur coat and a nice denim jacket.

Thinking this was a little strange, he asked her why she was wearing them rather than old clothes or an overall.

She showed him the instructions on the tin,

"For best results, put on two coats".


6. Two blondes were in a parking lot trying to unlock the door of their car with a coat hanger.

First Blonde:
"I can't seem to get this door unlocked!

Second Blonde:
Well you better hurry up. It's starting to rain and the top is down!


5. Three blondes were walking through a field when they came across a set of tracks.

The first blonde looked down at the tracks and said,
"I think they could be bird tracks."

The second blonde went to look and said,
"No, I think these are deer tracks."

They stepped aside and the third blonde went over to the tracks.

She looked down, then got run over by the train!


4. A blonde asked someone what time it was, and they told her it was 4:45.

The blonde, with a puzzled look on her face replied,

"You know, it's the weirdest thing, I have been asking that question all day, and each time I get a different answer."


3. A blonde was driving down the road listening to the radio and was quite upset when she heard blonde joke after blonde joke. A little way down the road, she saw another blonde out in a field rowing a boat. The blonde stopped her car and angrily jumped out yelling,

"You dumb blonde bimbo! It's blondes like you that give the rest of us a bad name! If I could swim I'd come out there and give you what's coming to you!"


2. A blonde and a redhead went to the bar after work for a drink, and sat on stools watching the 6 O'clock news. A man was shown threatening to jump from the Brooklyn Bridge, and the blonde bet the redhead $50 that he wouldn't jump.

Sure enough, he jumped, so the blonde gave the redhead $50. The redhead said,

"I can't take this, you're my friend."But the blonde insisted saying,
"No. A bet's a bet."

Then the redhead said
"Listen, I have to tell you that I saw this on the 5 O'clock news, so I can't take your money."

The blonde replied
"Well, so did I, but I didn't think he would jump again!"


1. A dumb blonde was really tired of being made fun of, so she decided to have her hair she would look like a brunette.

When she had brown hair, she decided to take a drive in the country.

After she had been driving for a while, she saw a farmer and a flock of sheep and thought,
"Oh! Those sheep are so adorable!"

She got out and walked over to the farmer and said,
"If I can guess how many sheep you have, can I take one home?"

The farmer, being a bit of a gambler himself, said she could have a try.

The blonde looked at the flock and guessed, "157."

The farmer was amazed - she was right! So the blonde, (who looked like a brunette), picked one out and got back into her car.

Before she left, farmer walked up to her and said.

"If I can guess the real color of your hair, can I have my dog back?"




honestly, i've heard better ones. come on uk!

anyway, ENJOY!

i need.

i need something to do.

i need someplace to go.

i need someone who gets it.

i need to feel like it's not always me.

i need to look and find things that make sense.

i need to stop my habit of wishful thinking.

i need to rely more on something bigger than me.

i need to cry and cry and cry.

i need that shoulder.

i need to stop crying.

i need to fight for personal independance.

i need to quit fighting the damn system.

i need to be less afraid.

i need to learn to love.

i need to learn to forgive.

i need to want to forgive.

i need to stop acting because the costume REALLY itches...




....in this life that is nowadays too fucked up for words.

DAMN it's been long.

i know i know. it's been AGES. but yeah i've been quite preoccupied with school and exams and all that jazz so i couldn't really blog much. ok fine, at all. there have been lots of things happening lately! one of them being my ability to talk to neera in uk online (i thought at first i wouldn't be able to. her schedule and all) so i found out that she's in musical heaven (wish i was there!) and also celeb heaven! yeah yeah. keira knightley was there and christian slater and dustin hoffman and kelly osbourne. she saw michael caine at the airport as well. AND i now know that a siew pau in london is rm7. one siew pau. tim perreau would SO not be able to survive there!


besides that, a few of us performed for fr.mitchel's birthday party the other day. some of us (gifford, primo, sheyna, LEON, belle, dhayang, and i) did a few of the witness songs. and some of us (megan, mae, jacq, kristie, SHERWIN, and i) did grrrrease lightning! you know, the dance. duh.

mind you, LEON is in caps because he's the vocal prodigy of the group and manyMANYMANY groups, i'm sure. and SHERWIN is in caps cos well, he's a dood. and not all doods would dance to grrrease lightning with 5 other girls okay? takes some serious balls man. respect brotha!


did i just say brotha?



anyway. mooooving on. HAHA. i found out the other day that thaddeus' sister does not eat lamb because she loves sheep. omg la how cute is that? she eats beef tho cos apparently, and i quote from thad, "cows are stupid". lol. she does in fact have a sheepskin rug (the one like mine).

so i ask.

me : so she loves sheep but she has a sheepskin rug??
thad : yeah la cos you dont kill it what you only shave the fella!
me : ...oh yeah.


hmmm. besides that what else happened?

oh yeah. been doing yearbook editing for the pass two days. it's cool la, got to learn loads about photoshop. (dont feel like such a noob anymore!) but it has its downsides la. like, a headache the size of pahang and johor put together at the end of the day. gosh. the yearbook bettr be one HELLUVA YEARBOOK this year! i've yet to learn how to create layouts and all tho. i gotta get my own photoshop for that. and for THAT to happen, i have to get my M-A-C! which brings us to the next hot topic.

mum promised to get me a macbook soon since i gotta learn photoshop and get skype and the whole enchilada. you might ask...why not get skype on this old computer? well. i cant. simply because, my laptop is SO FULL OF STUFF that i CANNOT DELETE like my school stuff, pekas, songs, pictures and whatnot so if i install skype, it'll just completely crash. ask anyone, my hair grows faster than my computer loads. seriously doods. so yeah. i need bigger, better, new and improved, completely re-booted MEMORY! and cool stuff that comes with a mac too la duh. so NOW, due to the whole worlds' master conspiracy to crush my dreams, i'll probably only get it in december. thats worst case senario la. I HOPE.

i know i know, you must be thinking oooh spoilt BRAT! but nooooooo noooooo..i'm really hoping to get it by mid november somewhat like the original plan. no wait..the original plan was like..october. hence the dream crushing drama. sighighigh. nevermind! well well well..hmm what else? oh yeah i've fallen for another phone. (not to say i'm not still in love with mine but lets just say i'm cheating on it, shall we?)

it's the nokia n76! in red!

i'm lazy to put the picture lah so just google it if you want kay? yeah it's a girly girl phone. the red one la. it has like a sort of mirror on the front. ain't that just awesome, girls? JUST what we need ;) seriously. well it looks a lot like the razr but i've always liked the razr so whattheheck! its nokia! its just like heaven! i want it but i dont know if i'd get it. mum said put it on my christmas list and maybe someone or some people would like to pitch in and get me one. wishful wishful thinking yet weirdly realistic. or maybe it's just my OTT positive and optimistic view on the topic.


that's been the life lately. not too bad. nottttt complaining. about any of the above la :) that's all for now. goodnight!!



oh yeah random thought, i think fuck-me-boots are kinda cool. i'd never wear them tho. hehe.

falcons 2008 in progress people!

september results SUCK. big time.

finals in like 3 weeks.

revamp, yo!

falcons are going green next year. and gold. green&gold.


GREEN&GOLD!

sayoneera :(

yesterday was a hectic beyond hectic day. our choir went for the competition yesterday and we won second place. which was cool cos we started practices really close to the actual day. which was cool cos we then got to miss class. which was actually not so cool come to think of it cos our tests are next week. oh well. i'll manage. i hope. okay then after the competition we got back to school and had class for like 30minutes before school was over. got home, had tuition then had to go to church for mass practice THEN went for like 30minutes for math tuition THEN headed to the airport. at like. 10.15pm.

i thought we were gonna be late but we were there before neera. the line for her check-in was SOooOOOoOooOOOO long. after they finally checked in, we went to mcds cos i hadnt eaten yet. (it was like, 12am by then ok) and i do horribly without food. so yeah, went to mcds and very stupidly gulped down the HOT milo. and experienced like 23rd degree burns on my tongue which i can still feel today. oh well. after that, neera's friends left and soon after that they had to go in as well so we had to go. hugged goodbye and tried (and managed successfully!) not to cry. so did mum. which is totally a major breakthrough.

we waited till they were out of sight and we left.

they kept saying though, "hey this is gonna be you in about 3 years!"

is it? thats the million dollar question.

shit-lah.

HhhhAAAAAAHHHHhhhAAAAAAAAAAa!!

LOL.


SARAH MOI & THADDEUS


i'm glad you guys have met.

over my blog comments.

sweet.

well done lah you guys rock!


<3 lovelovelove ya'll.

malaysiaku gemilang.

i realise that i havent posted anything about the gwen concert. well. in a nutshell..

A-W-E-S-O-M-E

seriously. i MISS it. evenifiwassittinglightyearsawayandhadtopeerthruapairofbinocularstowhichicurrentlyowemyLIFE.

yeah.even if.

OMG it was the best ever! gwen can sing live and THAT'S why we were all so desperate to see her in concert. and now, i'm hooked on all her new songs. i like early winter :) yeah yeah! and AAAAAAAAAAAAFTEEEEEEERRRRRRRR the concert..


THADDEUS MET GWEN!

haha curi2 la. he found her dressing room and all he found HER! and she signed for all of us! and i got the GWEN STEFANI WARDROBE sign. (its made of paper lah so no its not that bad if one were to steal it) and and and and and....


ITS PURPLE!


whhoooopeee! yeah. he did good didnt he? well thats not the best part.


we.heard.gwen.talking.to.him.on.speakerphone!!


and dyou wanna know what she said??


thaddeuscheahchingmin : "hey can you sign these for me they're for my cousins they'r all real bug fans." *note the cousins.*

gwenFRIGGINstefani : "yeah sure!"


HAHAHAHAHA all of us heard it over speakerphone and we screamed like HELL just cos we heard her voice! (we didnt know what she said until later cos we were screaming so we had to ask him..rather sheepishly..later).


yeah. it was so coooooool.


she didnt sing crash tho. strange.


OH WELL IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE. so far.

the myth of the backstabbers.

myth my FOOT. gosh i didn't think she'd really do it. for a while, i DID have doubts. or should i say, i gave her the bloody BENEFIT of the doubt. for a while. but it's all oh-so-clear to me now.


she's one genuine, bona fide, indubitable, legit, unvarnished, palpable, honest-to-goodness,(other synonyms welcome), classical, plastic




B I T C H




and STOP using other peoples' names when you want to go out with him just because you arent allowed to. that is just so LOW. get over yourself people aren't going to cover for you forever. i hope you get caught red handed. i PRAY that you do. it's about time you stop fucking around WHILE getting the credit and worship from every other STUPID homosapien who cant see past their goddamn noses.



so sue me.


or get your slave cum driver cum boyfriend to do it for you.

the calm(?) AFTER the storm.

went to UKM today to tour their tissue culture lab. was quite interesting. got lots of pictures (in STEPH'S camera) so i might just decide to post some of em up. saw lots of different speciments and some with funghi and contamination which were just plain blerghh. the dude said that sometimes you cant even BREATHE in the direction of the culturing speciment due to the bagajillions of bacteria transported to the speciment.



omg i sound like a freaking n.e.r.d.

i'm sorry.



nothing special happened today besides the trip to the lab. mainly cos it was quite a bad day for so many of us. serious shit. caused by bloody inconsiderate and full-of-themselves people. person. and cos of people. person. who thinks she's sort of all that who's idea of fun is attacking someone at their weakest point. yeah. brutal.

bm was miss erable today. everyone was in a sucky mood. i was killing myself trying to find a way to fit shaq into the team to go to UKM cos he really wanted to go NO JOKE. and saying no to shaq is like..like..


woof woof! *puppy pants and sticks tongue out*
*screech* plsladhjsgtdtysvfghasd hj asSPLAT *puppy gets run over by two trucks and a ktm*


haha those who watch FRIENDS religiously should be familiar with that. but seriously, i couldnt not take shaq. so i called my mum from school and asked her to beg the driver to allow one more person into the cab.

and he said YES! so i was like all happyhappyjoyjoy after that. twas all good. well, not all la. the constant niggling that the fact that it-whom-shall-not-be-named still existed in the world...yeah, that CANT be shaken.

*grumblegrumble*..15minutes..didnt even apologise...*swearandcurse*

oooh ohh! i'm going to pd tmrw. for the SOY concert. i hope its good. i've never seen them before. heard of them, but not seen or associated with them. really hope its good.

meh.
i mss jcq.
i'm seeing her tmrw tho!
yay! *miseries FLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYY out the window*


*temporarily tho, wanna take a bet?*

please, let it be over.

i've just come to a devastating conclusion. i'm as bad as some of those i criticise. i'm as pathetic. i'm as fucked up. and it occured to me that i'm not as superb as i thought i was. and no, it's not humbling. like i said, it's devastating.

i need someone to help me sort things out. like a sort of co-pilot that drives my life with me. i just cant seem to grasp that being. or non-being, who knows? not fucking me thats for sure. i'm like an alien to my own life. viewing from the spyglass. what do i see?

i see me. crying and screaming inside. crying and screaming inside. crying and screaming inside. crying and screaming inside. crying and screaming inside. crying jans dsknf md...........

yeah.

pathetic.

i asked for it.

no one SHOULD help me.

and yet, i pray that someone will.

this is the defining moment in my life so far when i can truly say..

i hate myself.





...and mean it.

dnaegrsouly sxaey bbay ||

i love love love love love my new layout. was quite 'in the mood' so i decided to change my whole entire layout, update everything including links and about me's.


enjoy <3

dont break me!

went to school this morning in a prrrty foul mood. not sure why, i just couldn't bring myself to be nice to anyone. i really wasn't bothered. lasted through the whole of chem too. now i say, thats a bloody record! it-whom-shall-not-be-named (according to steph) pissing me off as usual by just being alive. so that REALLY brightened up my day. wanted to get my chem marks today, but i totally forgot. AND my est marks. AND my bio marks. i wasnt in school the day when they gave them out so yeah, am results deprived. i got a lot more As than my PA-THE-TIC mid-year results but it doesnt really count. (they do on bad days though).

steph had the amazing idea of making characters out of all our classmates and four lucky teachers! she got to be spongesteph squareskirt and she made me laila&stitch. the one so far that takes the cake is.....*drum roll*.......




DARTH VINODH!


kkksshhh....I AM YOUR BACKSIDE!.......





some of the rest were :-

MegaRong (Megatron of Transformers) for Seng Rong

Keijzilla (go figure) for Kei Jin

CinderIma (if you dont know this just jump off the roof) for Ima

Maz Possible (Disney's Kim Possible) for Mazy

Adri & the GIANT peach (James and the giant peach by Roald Dahl) for Adri. we later resorted to cancelling out the '&' sign.

Timon and Pak Keii (Timon & Pumba of The Lion King) for PakKeii. he doesnt mind, dont worry.

ManChinNian United (Man. U) for ChinNian

Chee Yung Little (Chicken Little) for CheeYung

SpiderMung (Spiderman. or Spiderpig if you wish) for YeeMung



and for ONE of the FOUR lucky teachers...



YOGES ALMIGHTY! (Bruce almighty) for Mr Yoges.

being our physics teacher, we added the tagline 'Let there be acceleration' to his character.



well i thought it was pretty good.
heh.

just LEAVE ME ALONE!

i'm so sick of this nonsense. have some respect for me for pete's sake. geez. i'm the one now looking and feeling like a FOOL when you're out gallavanting with that...

forget it.


i have so much to say to you. so so so much. every single time. but no, it never gets across. ever. hence, I END UP LOOKING LIKE THE FOOL. it's not like i expect something in turn. no, i most definately do not. just stop making me regret sympathising and caring so much. please.


they say i have to stop caring.

they say i have to let you make your own mistakes till you learn.

they say they say they say.

i say i cant. i cant let you keep doing this. like i said, i cant watch a trainwreck. but you never listen.

so what is it that you want from the people you call your friends?



that, my dear, is the bagajillion dollar question.
stop being so oblivious. when you sense there's something wrong, speak up. it hurts when you dont.

so what are you gonna do about it?

HAHA godzillarr!

school was fun today, had chem in the morning. OMG it was miracle chem ok. i actually KNEW what i was doing. like, all of it. wow. had bio after that. i think there was a mistake in the question tho.


what protein does the red blood cell produce that fights viruses and kills bacteria??


if it's to transport oxygen then its haemoglobin laaa but its to KILL BACTERIA and FIGHT VIRUSES! like wth. i asked megan and sheyna and neither of them knew. sheyna said it might be antibodies and thats what i put. so WHEEEEEEE! well i still dont know fo sure but yeah, WHEEEEEEEEEE! had no papers for the rest of the day so it was good.

played country game with steph, maziah, vinodh and ima during math. so fun. i got 72 points :) its kinda low compared to the rest but thats only cos i missed the first three rounds. after school we had dance. was fun during the end. we might do candyman! haha. we were kinda just fooling around at dance when we finished practicing our routine, making up stupid dances and some of us, CAT-LIKE weird moves. hinthint STEPHANIE.

after dance, went home and got showered and all for bk. got a call from steph's mum on the way there.

"LALA! do you know where stephanie is? she didnt come home.."

haha yes, LALA. that's stephs mum for ya. hahaha. well, it was all because the FREAKO didnt CALL HOME and INFORM her MUM or VIRGINIA or BROTHERS that she was GOING TO BE LATE. she NEVER EVER DOES. her poor mother. i'm gonna kick her (barely-there) butt tmrw.

anyway, like always, tmrw is another story.

cheer 07

WE. FINISHED....






SEVENTH!!!!!





OUT. OF. FORTY. ONE. TEAMS.






WE. KICK. CHEER. BUTTS.






seriously man, seventh! its like @**#&@^#&@#*@**&#(*@#(*@#*(@!!!!! omg.

omg we rock. plus! we have gigs. hehe.

we owe this MAJOR MAJOR MAJOR success of course to JEH YING, our be be beloved captain! and SANDRA CHAN SU EN and ERIC (i dont know his last name), our coaches for coaching and coaching. and coaching. thnks a bnch y gys rwk!

omg seventh. from previously 4TH FROM THE BACK! phew. thats like damn cool. i've yet to get over the omgwegotfrigginSEVENTHoverall fever..as you can see. i dont think i EVER EVER EVER will!

okay, back to the competition..one the first day, we did pretty well. not THAT well lah many schools scored higher. cos.

1. the flyers weren't riding their tosses properly
2. there weren't enough tumbles/tumbles just plain sucked.
3. STEPPING ON PROPS!

the judges were really nice tho. they liked our cross thing! and they commented that it was cute. we received our score sheets, and we were in the top 15!

(i now know that we were actually no.15!)

after day one, we went back to school to practise the routine, tweek it here and there and to perfect it :)

got home at around 7.15pm. was damn tired so stoned for like damn long then went to shower. then slept. and slept.

day two~!

went to school..practiced more and left at around 7 something for jalil. got there, did hair and make up and got ready for the competition. we were 8th to perform cos they reverse it the second day. sheyna, primo, megan, mae, dhayang, jon, gary, jox and noel came to watch! but that was after we performed.. :(

that days' performance was A LOT better than the previous one. says many people. so there.

1. flyers rode their tosses better (and the twists were MUCH MUCH better! go jun wen!)
2. the cartwheels were neater, toes pointed ;)
3. no one stepped on props!

AND GUESS WHAT...

WE GOT ZERO PENALTIES FOR THE SECOND DAY! on the first day we got like, 6 penalties. 5 for stepping on props. san was damn frustrated cos it was really a waste! we were actually not that far from the Silkygirl Merit Award (the award given to the team with the none/the least penalties). sigh. had we not stepped on props..

after all the teams had performed, there were other performances while the judges deliberated. for example. point blanc (??!?!?!??!) and AC Mizal and and and and ANNDDDD CHARM!! everyone was like,"WE WANT CHARM! WE WANT CHARM!" hahaha. hmm imagine..

"WE WANT FALCONS! WE WANT FALCONS!"

heheh. oh well, wishful thinking.

ookay getting back to the prgram, CHARM's performance was the ultimate BOMB. needless to say, of course. congrats CHARM-ers! twas a-w-e s-o-m-e, awesome,awesome, TOTALLY!
(cool cheer,btw.)

yeah okay after they performed it was the results time.

1. best newcomer-CALYX ALL-BOYS (Catholic High School)
2. best dressed-STRIKERS (sri KDU)
3. best showmanship-TITANS (SMK Ave Maria Convent)
4. best cheer-MURIEL (SMK Pudu)
5. *Silkygirl Merit Award*-VIVACIOUS

5th place-TITANS again!
4th place-VULCANZ ALL-GIRLS (SMK Seafield)
3rd place-VULCANZ ALL-BOYS (go figure.)
2nd place-SHIRTLIFF (SMK Bintang Utara)
CHAMPION-DYNAMITEZ!! (SMK DJ)

and in SEVENTH PLACE..................

FALCONS FROM SEKOLAH SRI BESTARI!!

whoooohoooo! went for a celebratory dinner after that at pizza hut bsd. it was also pei wah's birthday so she got a cake and all. and she cried! so sweet.

this whole experience and the whole process has definately created a bond between all of us. the variation of personalities all brought together.

to learn.

to laugh.

to fight.

to cry!

to discover.

to strengthen.





to cheer.



FALCONS--love you girls tons *mwahh xoxo.

cheer07 clinic

went to the cheer clinic today at around 1.30pm. had to ask cik jannah to take me home first LOL cos i was so kelamkabut this morning and forgot to bring my wallet with me to school. wtf. reached at around..2pm. that was when it was supposed to start so we werent late. did some group stretching and then they asked us to break up into our squads to do stunts.


omg.


suddenly our stunts magically turned SO DARN GOOOOOOOD! i guess it was the pressure of being at the clinic and all. but seriously...everyone was so impressed. the judge said we had the best stunts she'd seen all day! but she hasnt seen the teams tomorrow so yeah. it kinda only lasts today. she changed a bit of our cheer moves and we just followed suit cos she's like......the judge wei.


and charm did a basket toss demo and everyone was like WOOOOOOOAHHHHHHHH......SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTT DAAAAAAAAAAMNNN COOOOOOOOOOOOOL OOOOOHMMYYYGAWWWDD! serious okay it was like SOOOO HIGH! and sooooo clean.


after that we learnt a dance that supposedly all the cheerleaders have to perform on the second day. cool dance. we packed up and left after that. got home. damn tired. stoned for a while thinking of that OHMYGOD basket pike then went to shower.


:)

oh ants.

i'm back. after only god knows how long. stopped blogging a while before exams i think. well, nothing much to talk about THERE. got shit results. ohmygaawwwd lah been so tired lately, cos of cheer. oh that reminds me..


CHEER 2007 IS ON SATURDAY AND SUNDAY! COME AND SUPPORT FALCONS!


am scared shitless cos we're not as prepared as we could be for the competition. if everyone had been committed and reliable FROM THE START we would have never come across this damn problem. EVEN NOW, some of them arent serious/committed/taking it seriously. was damn grumpy at practice today, cos of that lah. i mean, come on la, no one wants to make fools outta themselves so why do they act like they dont care?


mhmm. zat is ze MILLION DOLLAR question.


oh well. there's really nothing that would stick, whatever we say or however long the lecture is. some people are just...well, they just ARE. MEGA SIGH. lots of things ruined my day today. i also came to realise, just today, that some things i thought are, just arent under my influence but in reality, against (and i mean TOTALLY against) my better judgement. it disappoints me. and it creates distaste. distaste gile babi. it makes me feel like such a fool for even trying to make things better for others. cos it ends up..well like i said..against my better judgement. so why the hell DO i try?? i dont know. i dont have a choice. i do, but i eliminate the choice of NOT helping/trying. so in the end..i really dont have the choice.

and surprise, SURPRISE! its uckingfay blows up in my uckingfay face.

on to a happier note, we, the PRS society of SSB are running a campaign entitled 'Society~our Sanctuary'. it's a campaign actually originated when we first took part in this competition organised by AWAM (All Women's Action Society) for schools and colleges. this competition is to come up with the best campaign themed : Uniting for Safe Space. our campaign was launched just today. it was cool. the AWAM and celcom reps looked pretty impressed!

hmm what else is going on.

thaddeus left for singapore today for this exhibition thing. coming back on thursday/friday.

oh! gary's party that day was nice. a minor misunderstanding involved but it was good. sorry lah gary, you HAVE to do better to top mine ok? don't worry, there's always the next few years to PRACTICE :) hahaha. really cool rope game tho!

ok, gotta go have a shower now. lol i need something to help me sleep. early. for once. in my life.

out!