Tuesday, January 27, 2009

i am happy.




It’s not that unusual 
When
everything is beautiful
It’s just another ordinary miracle today. 



It seems so exceptional 
That things just work out after all. 
It’s just another ordinary miracle today.



things are looking up. all we have to do is keep praying that it stays there. 



xx 

Thursday, January 22, 2009

love story.

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real,
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes ~


is all i have to say right now. 

xx

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

lovebug

i've got the orientation party tomorrow. and i dont know what to wear (what else is new?). gah. anyway, college was okay today. didnt have chem cos our lecturer got her lunch times mixed up. LOL. that happened for math yesterday too. so yeah, free period. OMG i totally fell asleep in malaysian studies. for like 2 seconds la. yee mung woke me up. heh. then at math i was like zzzzzzzzzzz kinda sleepy and ms pravin knew so she made me do a math question on the board to wake me up. 


it woke me up alright. luckily i didnt embarrass myself by not knowing how to do it. 


i still remain on the fence on who to vote for. for student council positions. 
maybe i wont vote at all. whee!

yes, very short post. i know. but i art sleepy. 



Now I'm speechless over the edge
I'm just breathless
I never thought that I'd catch
This lovebug again~

xx

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

gah!

i would like to formally announce that..

MY FAMILY'S GONE  FALALA-BANANANAS!

and THAT, my dears, is a fact. 

i'm going out today. before i join the likes of my family. i prefer to remain one of the sane members. 


Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance


xx catch ya'll later!

Monday, January 19, 2009

the sob story of phosphorus

okay yeah, ignore the title. lol. it's just...something i was thinking about. not really worth putting into words. 

had a relatively okay day today. wasnt too sleepy towards the end of classes. haha. i feel as if the bonds of friendship in HB3 are definitely blooming at a quicker pace. which is excellent news, btw. even bryan seems so much more comfortable being surrounded by 12 girls all day. everyday. hmm. now tell me again why he wouldnt be? ;) today before psych some of my classmates decided to switch all the lights off so that they could jump out and scare everyone who walked into class. so they then came up with the idea of scaring ms cheryl when she walked in. 


it was an immense success. bravo HB3! 


psych was fun today. since it's monday madness we had an activity. we each had to find a partner (out of our comfort zone) and sit really close facing each other and staaaaaare into each others' eyes. my partner was jia huey. she's hilariously adorable. OH i forgot to mention, during all of this, we had to write down whatever came to our minds while staaaaaring into our partners' eyes. mhmm. interesting outcome. 

also, many candidates for student council were campaigning by putting up interesting posters like EVERYWHERE of themselves. no active campaigning at all. yet. maybe there will be tomorrow, i dont know. i dont even know who to vote for :P was supposed to go for the dance club meeting today after classes but i had no transport home after so i just went home straight after classes :( that's okay tho, mei yen went. she'll tell me about it tomorrow. ms cheryl is the advisor as well so that's pretty cool. and apparently the dance club is like performing at our party on thursday. hip to the hop, yo. hope it's good. i dont really wanna do hip hop tho, i'd rather take up jazz. it's more of a challenge. and it's new. never really gone into jazz before. 

i hear news on there being latin too!

ooh and there's a yoga club. thinking thinking of joining joining. but...we'll see. it could be good for me, this year especially. got lots, and i mean LOTS, of calming down and excessive breathing to do. siiigh. i thought the united nations club thing would be interesting but it isnt really my thing. lots of debating and stuff. i prefer a less stressful/not-SO-much-use-of-the-brain kinda ECA. lol. that sounded quite bimbotic. i mean, not that i dont wanna use my brain la it's just that i use it so much during class now (more than i used to in school. eek.) and so i'd prefer something more fun and light to do for ECA la.

geez. is that sooo wrong? :(

so yeah, thinking about all that now la. we get to choose our clubs at the party on thursday too. apparently food is sponsored by TGIF! i hope it isnt just a rumour. heehee. OH OH! ate at joe's corner kopitiam today. definitely going back :) verrrry the good price and verrry the good food. 


ack. i'd better go check BB7 now for notes and study a bit. ciao bellas! 

Sunday, January 18, 2009

the list. oh GOD, the list.

sunday, end of the weekend. or in reality, the start of the week. why do some people consider sunday the end of the weekend and some, the start of the week? i suppose it's just the effect of sunday on different types of people. for example. say there's Group A of people and Group B of people. the A people spend their sundays recovering from the weekend and preparing for monday. no nonsense. the B people go out, have fun with friends and family, just as they would on well, saturday. no difference.


perspectives. 


got me thinking. (yes, i DO have the brain capacity) 


how does one mark the end of a chapter in ones' life, and the beginning of another? now, THAT'S the million dollar question. i have come to a conclusion now that a chapter of my life has come to a certain close. but how (okay this post is gonna be filled with questions so bear with me LAH) do i sort of...kickstart on this new chapter? what decisions do i have to make? what about myself do i have to alter? it's like starting a new week. i'm a Group B person so the start of the week to me is SO monday. so, it's as if i'm at the foot of a new week. leaving last week behind and dreaming, only dreaming, of next week. the questions above would be so easily answered if it's put into this point of view. 

how do i kickstart the new week?
by waking up early, not rushing/getting stressed about going late for class. by being prepared and being happy and not mopey and emo. 

what decisions do i have to make throughout the week?
to do with time management, whether or not to stay in or go out, how i spend my money, etc.

what about myself do i have to alter to have a successful week?
my laziness. 'nuff said. 

well, and shooting my mouth off. 

yeah. see? so simple. so clear. but we're talking a whole new chapter in life. obviously it isnt that simple. and that's what sucks. cos we dont know the possible characteristics, the outline or structure of this chapter as we do the week. we dont know..the ending either. 

which is sad. and scary. and which makes you look up the word un-fucking-predictable on dictionary.com.

this chapter is going to be something like a chapter of my life never was before. now that i know for a fact. and here are a few things i'm planning for my new chapter so that i wont be so completely lost in it. 

1. i'm going to work hard in college. like i never did in school. i need to get into a good uni. 
2. i'm going to successfully curb my laziness. which isnt going to be easy since it has it's own fucking personality and zip code. 
3. i'm going to make a lot of new friends (that's already in the process) and meet a lot of new people. to improve my people skills. 
4. i'm going to get more fit. (steph, GYM!)
5. on a lighter note, i'm going to get a tattoo.
6. i'm going to learn (from megan, my financial advisor) to skimp. big time. 
7. i'm going to get the cybershot T-700 in hot pink ( hopefully with part of my own money. or all. if that's technically possible)
8. i'm going to turn 18 with a bang so 'happening' you could hear it in the artic region. and in certain parts of mars. 
9. i'm going to start my christmas shopping EARLY so i wouldnt be rushing like a headless chicken. as mum often quotes. 
10. i'm going to try to reason with...complications. i'm going to try, okay? i'm not saying i can. but a part of me wants this too and hopefully, that part will dominate. 

 so yes. by the end of this chapter, i will surely/hopefully have checked off all/most of the things on that list. hence now commences the start of the newest chapter of my life.


welcome. 


I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But that's nothing new ~


this is my favourite verse, btw ;)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Sippin' wine, Killin' time.

first off, i'd like to establish that..

1) i think Noddy and his toy friends should go jump of a toy cliff.
2) and DIE. preferably.
3) there is a rubber duck (!?!?!??!!) stuck on the bathroom wall. 


ah. now that i've got that off my chest, i will continue with my post for today. i have a feeling the quality of my spoken english is slowly deteriorating. which like so cannot happen. not like my english is SO perfect but still, i like to think i have an exceptionally good conduct of the language. and i think my standards are dropping. it's just, i hear myself speak to some of my friends (those of whom do not speak english the way i'd like them to) and it's as if...i sound LIKE them. maybe it's like me psychologically trying to go down to their level just for that conversation. i mean, dude. if i turn out speaking like some of my friends do, hell i'd totally dig my own grave. willingly. 

as in i'd like VOLUNTEER.

nothing mind-blowingly interesting happened today. went to class early. not that i'm always late it's just that i was pretty late yesterday due to the unforeseen insane jam. seriously. had bio in the morning. thennnnnn we had psych (OMG i seriously have to learn many things on my own la) and theeeennnn we had chem. went for lunch after that with yee mung and chung wye. we ate 1901 hotdogs. so filling. gaahh. then we went back for our "talk" on the i-Zone and the Blackboard 7 stuff and the library. lol. most people were like facebook-ing throughout the talk. it's a good thing the computers are arranged in a way where no one can really see what everyone else is doing. after the talk we had malaysian studies. mr. william PILED on the assignments, no joke. he took away one assignment la cos the majority decided that 3 would SO suffice. 

i mean, it's MALAYSIAN STUDIES. take a chill pill man. 

anyway, this is one of the assignments we have to do.

ahem ahem. 

1) create a music CD with a cover and a poster to match, with the theme 'Unity'
2) COMPOSE, WRITE and fuckin' PERFORM an ORIGINAL fuckin' song as a group presentation. to the theme 'Unity'.

whooooopdeedoo! 


well, we DO have till like, march. so i guess the time frame is just dandy. *insert profanity* 

was so sleepy towards the end of classes. learnt to use my calculator today. the one that burnt a hole in our pockets. it's pretty cool. i'm so gonna use it for like everything. since it cost how much it cost, i'd better make the MOST use out of it. i'd use it to like...plot random graphs throughout the day. 

Lazyness against Amount of Food Intake. 

Sleepiness against Amount of Food Intake. 

Offmyrocker-ness against Excessive Noddy and Friends Input.

yeah, i think i'll do that. then the calculator would actually be closer to being worth what i paid for it. 

heh. 


The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know ~

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

the fire you ignited.

i have a feeling i'm in deeeeeeep shit. hmm. ah well, i'm in a risky frisky mood. who knows how long i'm gonna be on this high. and how far the fall's gonna be. 


ouch. 


on a lighter note, college is going well. so far. i hope i dont jinx it. it's actually quite relaxed, nothing like school. tho everyone says to me, " OoooOoOooOohhh you start at 8.30 and end at like 4??? go back to school lah!" 

bite me. 

YOU try cramming YOUR programme into 11 months and THEN come talk to me. like, serially ;) anyway, no reason to get worked up. i have good food everyday. there is one thing to get worked up about tho. such as my current and rather sudden investment in winter clothing. the building is fuggin freeeeeezing man. but its central. with hartamas shopping center. so there's kinda nothing much we can do about it. gaaah! i'll get used to it i suppose. i bet i could now sleep naked in a snowstorm and live to tell the tale. i kid you not.

went to school (SSB) after college to watch and help with the cheer auditions. was pleasantly surprised at the the talent this year, compared to the talent last year. or lack thereof. AHEM. aaaanyway, the new ones seem pretty into the spirit so we're all quite optimistic. was sooooo nice seeing all the Falcons '08 cheerleaders. memmmmorrriiieeeesss :) i got a lotta hugs too. heee. saw a few teachers as well. i miss everything so so much. 

well, that was basically my day. 


I want you to know 
With everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go ~

Thursday, January 08, 2009

phosphodiester bond

classes started today. had chem in the morning. was almost....too good to be true. then we had ESL and had like this group activity. was quite interesting. and. funny. 


did you know that in South African english, a traffic light is referred to as a 'robot'? 


HAH. neither did i. so in a way, it was pretty informative. after that we thought we had a free period since LAN hasnt started but noooooooooooo, we had a talk on good first impressions. learnt that there are many types of handshakes which signify different things. ask me one day, i'll show you. quite cool. then after the talk was our break. went to eat at a different mamak today. but i prefer the other one. this one's too....crowded. and poor yee mung's not used to mamak overload so tomorrow we'll probably eat somewhere else. lol. after our break we went back to class for psych. psych was fun. ish. our lecturer is quite cool. she's young and i guess she relates to us more. she gave us the assessment breakdown and then we had this group activity. we had to pick a movie to analyse based on four psychological factors. we chose dark night. daaaaaaark night. pretty psycho so it fit really well. and theeeen we had the last period which was bio. hence my nerd-ish title. hehh. ask me what THAT is :) i can tell yooou :))))


shut up thayne, i know you know. hmmph. 

Sunday, January 04, 2009

life.

when things go wrong, when you get sad or when you get mad, people say

hey. that's life.

when you get hurt, when being treated unfairly, people say

hey. that's life.

when everyone seems to be fine and you're the only sinking ship, people say

hey. that's life.

it's life. there's no running away. there's no hiding out or avoiding. as much as you just want to be left the hell alone, it wont happen. it's life. i have to admit that i hate what's happening. i dread the future because i know i'm going off-track. so off-track that i might not even recognise myself somewhere down the road. now even, i've started seeing someone else in the mirror. i cant tell yet whether or not it's for the better or for the worse. but it's definitely different. i'm different. more brazen, more rebellious. 

rebellious. a word i thought would never describe me. 

but sometimes, to make a point, rebellion is quite necessary. and god knows i have to make this point. 


if it's the last fucking thing i do.