shoot me.

this will NOT do. i worked, i did. i knew what i was doing, I DID. this cannot be. if this is supposed to be my best, i dont know what best means anymore. they say a chain is as strong as its weakest link. my chain, fuck only GOD knows. this always happens. nothing different or even remotely good in this sense can ever, ever, EVER happen to me.

i hate this feeling. 

and guess what, no one's there to catch me.

dum dee dum dum dum .

exams are over (unless est 1 tomorrow is counted) which it is SO not. i'm not being over-confident. just plain honest. there is NOTHING that you can study for est. except knowing the formats for the essays. so yeah, two weeks of holidays after this and then it's back to hitting the books. i hope. very short post. nothing much is going on. 

help me!

i wanna go for marie digby tomorrow!

but! i! have! NO! transport!

i dont really wanna go to see HER. just to get out. and catch up with my lovelies. 

but! now! i! CANT!

unless, by some stroke of luck, transport comes knocking on my door.

i! want! to! DIE!

well, not really. but yeah, you get my drift :(

in the midst of hell

exams started on monday (yesterday). had bm and history yesterday and one english paper and the other history paper. history was okay overall. quite good actually. tomorrow's english only so i have lots of time to study chem in the library. hence, the blogging and laziness. read like 3/4 of the 8th volume of singapore ghost stories in the library today and freaked myself out totally. thank god i wasnt alone. there was an ENTIRE SECTION on ghost attacks on students in the middle of exams. i was like, SHIT. what are the odds..surprisingly i didnt shut the book at the speed of light and toss it out the window towards the nearest car to be squished into oblivion. i guess there is a fraction of bravery in me. 

somewhere. you'll see. one day.

okay, even i dont believe that. MOVING ON. after school i went to primary for a while to kill time and miss nicole was telling us more ghost stories from the TSGS books. how she can remember so many stories is a mystery to me. i read like 3/4 of the book and all i could come up with was like two stories. yes, that's all thats left of my memory skills for ya. she teman-ed me back to sec and told me MORE stories while i was waiting for pn rohaya. 

come to think of it, i'm like alone right now.

yikes. okay MOVING ON again! nothing else has been going on lately. my social life is completely down the drain due to exams (imagine SPM, laila). right. sigh. anyway, cant wait for exams to be over. then its PARTAAAY time! well, for like, 2 seconds la. then its back to preparing for trials and then SPM. 

okay this is sorta besides any point but i'm totally hooked on eskulin kids hand sanitizer. and quadratini napolitaner. 

cant wait for mum to get back. TONIGHT! yay.